A deal is a deal

It's been more than six weeks since I've written on this blog, an eternity in the blog world, and there have been a variety of reasons why I haven't done so.

Without getting into all of the specifics, the main reason is that it is simply a difficult task to do so when your heart really isn't in it anymore. See, when I lost my job at the Observer-Reporter 3 1/2 months ago, I started this blog because in my mind I wasn't really gone from sports writing yet and there were still a lot of things that were very fresh in my mind. But as the days and weeks and months have dragged on, the more I have become removed from that scene and I've come to the realization that that chapter of my life has come to an end (all puns intended.)

However, one thing brought me back onto this blog ... my wife. The same wife that didn't like me covering the Pirates a whole lot during the years that I did so again for a variety of reasons, brought me back on this blog.

Without going into too many specifics, we made a deal ... if she went to the gym, I would write on this blog again. Sounds simple enough, yet she first went to the gym after we made this deal two days ago and I am now just getting back on this blog.

Why?

I guess this whole experience has been like a death in the family to me of sorts. The longer since someone died, the less you talk about the person. We all get caught up in our own lives and our families that even the people that were the closest to us who have passed get put on the backburner on a daily basis even though those memories still burn deep.

The same has been true for my situation and, in turn, this blog. The farther since the death of my sportswriting career, the more this blog has been pushed onto the backburner, even though I still follow baseball very closely and miss covering it and other sports very much. I know there is a time and place to move on, but some things are just harder to do than others I guess.

So, with that in mind, I am going to give this one more shot. I am not going to make any grandiose promises that this blog will be this or that. I'm not sure what its going to end up being to be honest with you. Yes, baseball will obviously be tied in and still a focus, but there may be times when it is not the sole focus. Just like in a baseball game where so many things occur that it is hard to focus on one thing as to why a game was won or lost, so is that also true in life. And even though we all have a gameplan, sometimes you have to change that plan in midstream in order to be successful.

I thought I had a perfect gameplan in place at ome time, until that completely blew up in my face. Now, like a manager starting a rookie in his first game, there is a lot of uncertainty in this game and the plan has completely changed.

I just still hope that I can come out a winner.